Are you ever terrified of making a choice: scared that it will be the wrong one?
Recently, I’ve been feeling a lot of fear regarding my future. Before I turned 30, I was able to make snap decisions, trusting in the higher power and that if I made a mistake it didn’t matter. Everything was taking me on a journey to my higher and better good.
Now, at 32, I fear making the wrong decision. Petrified of what it would mean if I choose badly. Scared to regret my own choices. As the Course of Miracle states: Fear is always a sign of strain, arising whenever what you want conflicts with what you do.
My Fearful and faulty thoughts:
1) That I can make mistakes, and that there are ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ choices.
2) That there is only one path to the future I wish to create, and if I don’t make the ‘right’ choices, then I will fail.
3) That I might (and can) disappoint myself, spirit, family, friends etc.
4) That life isn’t safe and doesn’t support me in all that I do.
5) That unless I’m very careful, I will create suffering, woe, and misery in my life. And these things I wish to avoid.
The list goes on, but they all arise from fear.
The course of miracle also states that: Whenever there is fear, it is because you have not made up your mind. Your mind is split, and your behavior inevitably becomes erratic.
It comes back to choices, and the way to make spirit-guided and blessed choices.
The course of miracle states: Before you choose to do anything, ask me (spirit/god/universe) if your choice is in accord with mine. If you are sure that it is, there will be no fear.
I had a few things that I had been struggling to make decisions about, but the two most significant were whether to apply for a PhD and what writing project to pursue.
I took a moment to align with spirit, and asked whether my choice to apply for a PhD was in accord with Spirit, and I received a positive/yes response. I asked which writing project to purse, and was also given an answer.
The stress and fear I’ve been feeling around these two decisions has been lifted. Now, I know that I don’t have to worry about outcomes, or right/wrongs, or the future. I’m in accord with the universe, with love, and that fills me with strength, joy and faith.
These feelings remind me that when you let love lead and let the universe drive, that you allow room for the universe’s plan to unfold. You become an expansive being of light, aligned and unified with the source of all things. You allow magic and miracles to blossom in you and in your life.
Wishing you love xx
Penelope Jane Jones.