Failure, or the thought of, paralyses me. There is an internship elective as a third year subject for my University degree. Motivated, I researched different places to approach – and aimed high, finding a prestigious newspaper that offers one. They ask for a sample article to be sent with your application, and so even though I haven’t done any journalism subjects I spent hours researching an article on the refugee situation and the Malaysian solution.
A draft or two away from completion, self-doubt creeps in. ‘Why would they choose a non-journalist student?’ and ‘What I’ve written is forced and bland, this won’t be good enough for them’.
I stop writing my draft.
I don’t apply for the internship.
I haven’t applied for any internships.
Now, I have a choice. I can let fear rule me or rule my fear. Either do my best and give it a shot or not.
I may not be the best writer in the world, and I may not be what the newspaper is looking for. But, I am determined and stubborn. I will keep chasing after my dream, I will keep writing, I will do everything in my power to succeed…until I do!
Penelope Jane Jones.